[Kneller2]

I'm just writing here to apologise for losing it over the weekend. I feel utterly ashamed at how i behaved and for that i am truly sorry to everyone who was affected.

Thanks to everyone who tried to help me to calm down. I really appreciate everything you tried to do for me. It is because of this kind of support and the fact that so many parts of my life have improved as a result of join me that i have decided against quitting (although it's what i had planned even before this weekend).

Right now i'm at a pretty low point in my life. I've used alcohol too much recently as a way of keeping me happy, but things more often that not swing the other way and send me into spiralling depression and hatred of myself. On Saturday things just went way too far. I had to be a man and apologise publicly for this cos so many people deserve better.

I won't be around as much in the next few months. I need to get my life in order and that involves cutting back on alcohol, getting a new job and regaining some respect that i've spent so long trying to gain from you all.

I'd be grateful if you didn't reply directly to this post but to do so privately instead.

Thanks xx

This post has been edited by SJ Kneller2: 23 July 2007 - 08:42 AM

[Kneller2]

Can i just say thanks for all your very kind messages. Joinees are wonderful people

Also, i am 100% back to my normal self and that i was entirely the only one to blame for the incident in question, as i didn't make it clear enough in my original post.

I am now back on the forum, though i will be cutting down on the number of meets i go to on health grounds as mentioned ^^^

This post has been edited by SJ Kneller2: 24 July 2007 - 01:38 PM

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This post has been edited by SJ Drunken Pud: 24 July 2007 - 02:35 PM